Monthly Archives: May 2015

Parasite Invasion

“Mama Carroll, come quick! Myra* needs your help.” I rushed into the bathroom expecting to see Myra vomiting. Instead, she faced me with her pants around her ankles and a panicked look in her eyes.

“Myra, what is the problem?” I asked.

“I have a worm,” her soft voice replied.

“A what?” I asked, not sure I comprehended the Spanish word gusano.

Myra bent over and fully mooned me, revealing a round worm trying to make its way out of her body. With no time to think, I tore off some toilet tissue, grabbed ahold of that creature, and yanked it out. Oh, please, don’t let there be more. After a few minutes, I called our nurse, and she confirmed there would be more. I needed to get Myra on parasite medication to kill the others (yes, death to those ugly things). She also told me that while the medication worked, the worms would try to exit the body through any opening possible. Now that grossed me out. I even got a detailed review of what that looked like. Lord, I never wanted to be a nurse. I don’t know if I can handle this. (The Lord told me that I already had done it.) I followed the nurse’s orders and, thankfully, didn’t have to repeat this performance. I became a hero in the eyes of the girls that day, but I sure didn’t feel like one.

The calmness I saw in Myra through all of this with the round worms reminded me of what these girls are subjected to in this third-world country. Parasites are an everyday part of their lives. Many of them don’t have the option to take the medication necessary to kill the living creatures because of the lack of money.

Parasites are picked up in many ways: in the dust/dirt, in water, on fruits and vegetables, or from poor sanitation and hygiene. There are parasites everywhere in this little country the size of Tennessee. Prevention isn’t available to these girls, because they are already walking invitations for infestation. They deal with weakened immune systems, malnutrition, insect bites, and contact with animal feces. Missionaries learn to spend a lot of time washing hands and disinfecting every fruit and vegetable. Drinking filtered water is a must. After all of the precautions, those nasty critters still find a way to get into bodies and cause serious physical complications.

I had only been in Guatemala for two weeks when what my Granny called “the green apple two-step” hit me. I rarely have fevers, but that came next. I called for help and received the necessary medication to clean out my system. I suffered the side effects of the medicine, moaning and groaning, but I reminded myself that the kids in this country usually live as a host for these parasites their whole short lives. I’ve had to resort often to medication, and it has become a way of life for me. Instead of fretting, I’m thankful for the help when faced with those times.

The time with Myra, and the personal experiences I’ve endured in similar situations, helped me to resolve that the children who came to Shadow of His Wings would be cleansed in every way possible. When a new child entered the orphanage, he or she automatically received the medication to get rid of any parasite habitation. If a child had symptoms of stomach pain, diarrhea, and fever, we headed to the pharmacy for parasite medication. That problem took first place at the top of the check list, with flu and food poisoning under it. Nobody should have to endure the torture these creatures can inflict, but we saw victory with a little white pill.
Name has been changed.

Seeing With God’s Eyes

Young women from the States came to Shadow as interns to help for periods of a month or more. Many times they were lifesavers, as they pitched in to help with the always growing to-do list. One evening, while resting in the downstairs apartment, I received a frantic call from one of them. “You need to get up here, please,” cried Jennifer*. She had caught Linda* going up the stairs with a knife.

Those words brought fear into my heart. These children came from backgrounds where they saw many retaliations with machetes. People were maimed or killed in actions of anger. I ran up the stairs to the main house, just as Linda came down, sobbing so hard she had to hang onto the rail to keep from falling. She hyperventilated all the way down to the apartment. “Take deep breaths, Linda. Do it again,” I encouraged. She finally calmed down and breathed normally.

“Please tell me what happened and why you had the knife. Remember how important it is to be honest.”

Linda sighed and responded, “I needed some cotton to remove the fingernail polish from my nails, and when I asked the other girls, they didn’t have any. So I thought I could cut the end of my pillow, and there would be some cotton inside for me to use.”

I wanted to grab and hug her with all the relief I felt. How many times had I judged the actions of people and missed what really happened? This resourceful girl had a need and saw a way to meet that need. I wanted to laugh out loud, but I needed to keep my serious composure because of the involvement of a knife. That needed to be addressed.

Linda taught me a valuable lesson. I needed to take the time to listen to what these children were saying and not assume something by what I saw. I wanted to apply this to my daily life, and I added it to my prayers. Linda could have been in all kinds of trouble. Lord, please let me see things through Your eyes. My eyes have scratched lenses, and I don’t see things clearly. I must confess that sometimes I react too quickly, but I am learning to be a listener. What a difference this world would be if we saw things through God’s eyes.

*Names have been changed.

Trusting the Lord

I and others continued to counsel with Sara* about the advantages of her being adopted by a family in the States. This opened the strong possibility of a kidney transplant. It would certainly be life changing for this ill girl. I related to her being afraid of stepping into the unknown.

Teams often came to minister to the children of our growing orphanage and helped with the upkeep of the facilities. One day, Joanne received a reply from a couple in the States who were interested in adopting Sara. They came to the orphanage with a team, spent time with Sara, and went home feeling that adoption might work for them. Learning of this possibility, I felt motherly protectiveness well up inside of me. Not just anybody is going to be able to adopt her. We have to find the right people who will love her as we do. Joanne explained, “They will return to Guatemala and spend more time with Sara. They are seeking God’s guidance in this and have an understanding of how difficult it could be for her.” That will give me time to check them out too.

When the couple returned to Guatemala, they came to the orphanage and waited in my living room. Sara slowly walked through the doorway. When she saw the couple she screeched, “Darlene*!” and ran to the woman, throwing her arms around her. I lost control of my emotions and had to leave, so Sara wouldn’t see me crying. I went into my bedroom to get control. Is this the same girl who refused to show affection to people she hardly knows, the one who did not want to consider adoption? I knew what happened. God answered many prayers, and Sara connected with this couple. To me, this confirmed that she would become part of their family. God knew what I needed to see, in order for me to let her go with peace in my heart.

The next months were filled with phone calls to the States, so Sara could get better acquainted with this couple. I got to be involved in one of the most exciting parts of the transition. “Sara, how would you like to go to Disney World?” I asked. Sara perked up, and with an ear-to-ear grin, she yelled, “Yes!”

“We will fly to Orlando, meet with Darlene and Dennis*, and go to Disney.” We quickly made arrangements, including a temporary visa for Sara to leave Guatemala. I contacted my daughter, who worked for Disney, and she set the wheels in motion so that Princess Sara would be a special guest at Disney with her future parents. Seeing everything new through the eyes of this young girl, a child from the ghettos of Guatemala, excited me. We will never forget the memory of this trip, and it sealed Sara’s decision. She wanted to be adopted by these loving people and move to the US. Fear no longer dominated her thoughts. The quality time with these people made the difference.

The adoption process moved along quickly because of Sara’s serious medical condition. She moved to the States and became a part of this incredibly giving family. It wasn’t a coincidence that Sara’s new mother worked as an RN or that their church family helped support adopting families. The kidney transplant became a reality. God had many details all worked out. Through it all, Sara and I learned another great lesson about trusting the Lord. As a God of love, His plans are the best for each of His children. When we need help, He wants us to come to Him in trust and ask for His intervention, just as a young child does with his earthly father.

*Name has been changed.

Trusting the Lord

During the time of lamenting and second-guessing myself, the Lord got my attention, and I realized I lacked trust in Him. I preached to the children about the trust we can have with the Lord, yet I faltered as I thought of my responses about Sara*. Three different people came forward and shared words of encouragement with me. None of them knew to the extent that my mind twisted and turned about the responsibility I brought upon the Home. They said that Sara would find the Lord Jesus Christ as her Savior. She would find love and security that she never knew before living with us. All three people spoke the same words at three separate times. I may not have understood all of the “whys,” but God had a plan, and I needed to trust the Lord with Sara’s life. He showed me that when I recognized my weakness, then He could work through the situation with His might and wisdom. I surely recognized my weaknesses. Forgive me, Lord, for my doubts, and help me to trust you more. 

People scheduled to help with dialysis, which we administered four times a day. We sectioned off and sanitized a little room for Sara’s medical supplies and treatments. We learned to record the amount of fluid drained from her, the amount of fluid input, her temperature, and any external visible signs. My missionary friend Dannie sent me a list of signals to watch for that would indicate an emergency. Checking for signs of swelling, weakness, sleeping more than usual, white around the lips, or coughing kept us on alert. But each day became more complicated with her death wish. One time, Sara cut the dialysis cord to her abdomen, and we rushed her to the emergency room. There were times she refused to eat, thinking that she could starve herself to death. But God had a plan, and our little team gathered together in prayer for her. During our turns administering dialysis, we planted seeds of hope and love into her heart. I spent many hours with her during dialysis and saw her emotional pain. She viewed herself as garbage. Her tears and wild responses showed me the deep fear she tried to hide. I felt myself becoming more protective of her. Gradually, I could see the walls starting to crumble.

The judge who gave us custody of Sara asked if we could find someone in the States who would adopt her. She wanted Sara to have the possibility of a kidney transplant and saw this as a solution. The thought startled me, because I couldn’t imagine anyone adopting a child with such a difficult medical history. I had more to pray for but could see this as a possibility for Sara’s life.

“Sara, did you know that God created you with a plan and a purpose for your life before He created the world?” Her fingers wove in and out of my blonde hair, which all of the kids liked to do, but the strange look I received told me she did not know this. I read Psalm 139 to her. “Sara, God doesn’t make mistakes, and even though we don’t understand all that is going on in our lives, we know that He created us for something good. How would you feel about being adopted, going to the States to be a part of a family, and having a kidney transplant?” I really didn’t know what to expect but was surprised at such quick negativity. “No!” she muttered turning away from me.

One of the requirements in the adoption process was the approval from Sara. What can we do to change her mind? How can we help her see the benefits of adoption? I said the words out loud many times: God has a plan all worked out for Sara. We were in the dark as to where He would lead her, but I trusted in Him.

*Name has been changed.